“Art enables us to find ourselves and lose ourselves at the same time.” ― Thomas Merton, "No Man Is an Island" Recently, I've come to realize (again) just how much being chronically ill has stolen from me, and not just in the obvious physical sense. Little bits & pieces of me, of who I am, have… Continue reading Forgotten Dreams & Finding Myself Again
How I Ruined Election Night But Learned Something Valuable In The Process
We had been following The Election - you know, the one billed as the most important in decades - for months. Sifted thru dozens of mailings. Watched all the debates. Read article after article. Signed petition after petition. Seen hundreds of facebook postings about it. It had all come down to this moment. We were… Continue reading How I Ruined Election Night But Learned Something Valuable In The Process
Fear, Nature, and Mother Earth
I was afraid. Not the kind of rational, in-my-head, calculating-the-risk, type of afraid. No. In-my-gut afraid. Primally, animal-instinctually, go-inside-and-hide, afraid. Because of a sound coming up the Mountain, one I'd never heard. It wasn't a feeling I'd had in a long time; in fact, I can't remember when. Certainly never here, at my home on… Continue reading Fear, Nature, and Mother Earth
Ash’s Advice: Part 3 – On Doctors
Note: Ash's Advice is written by, me, Ash, a long-time patient with ME/CFS, FMS, Chronic Lyme, etc. I am not a doctor, and nothing written here should be construed as medical advice. These are simply my musings; a series of letters to my younger self, and to anyone suffering through the "living death" that is… Continue reading Ash’s Advice: Part 3 – On Doctors
Finding The Path Forward
September is here, there's a cool nip in the air at night, a few leaves are starting to change... Summer is coming to an end, and Autumn is beginning. For many of my dearest friends, this brings a deep sigh of relief, and a hope that the worst is over. For almost everyone I know,… Continue reading Finding The Path Forward
“How Do You Do It?”
"How do you do it?" she asked. "Just how do you manage to keep it together in spite of how miserably sick you often are? It is just so hard to keep doing this, you know?" It is a question I get asked often, and there are a number of answers. First, a rundown of… Continue reading “How Do You Do It?”
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