Life, Spirit, and Health: the View from the Mountain
I was doing it wrong, and I knew it. It was one year ago today, my mom had just died, but I wasn't crying. "Something's wrong with me," I confided, oh so quietly, to those closest to me, a week later. They assured me there was no right way, no wrong way, to grieve. That… Continue reading On Mourning
This story starts with a dog, and ends with another. It's long, and touches on sensitive subjects, with raw, open, honesty. The last 10 months have been quite a journey, full of sorrow, shock, a moment of extreme clarity, a lot of contemplation, reflection, unexpected dreams, and then resolution, when the dream became reality. It… Continue reading Saving Myself By Saving a Dog
I went to my PCP (that's Primary Care Provider for those who don't know) last week for my monthly visit, and a new nurse takes me back to the room. It went something like this... Her: "You're here for a follow-up for...?" Me: Chronic fatigue Syndrome. Her: Oh, fatigue. So you're tired a lot. (As… Continue reading “Chronic. Fatigue. Syndrome. It’s An Illness.” – May 12: ME/CFS Awareness Day
It's funny, what I forget, even now, after so long being sick. Sometimes, in my mind, I am still strong & healthy, as if time simply stopped passing when I became ill. Sometimes, it really feels that way, as if time did stop, and there is only The Before Times and a giant blur that… Continue reading 15 Years: Time, Memory, Remembering, Forgetting, and Stupidity
In my last post, I said I wanted the fire, the passion, back in my life. Over the last few weeks, I've done a lot of deep thinking and reflecting, while struggling every day just to keep my ship from sinking. Well, I've come to some harsh realizations and conclusions, and I'm feeling pretty damn… Continue reading I Will NOT Go Quietly Into The Dark
Frank Talk On Pain and Pain Meds: Introduction – Jumping Off Into The Vast Unknown Part 1: Pain, Pain Meds, Opioids, Addiction and Dependance Part 2: Pain Management Myths and Misconceptions Part 3: My Personal Journey Part 4: Stormy Seas and Taking On Water (Quitting Opioids) Part 5: Walking Through The Fire (Quitting Opioids) (you… Continue reading Walking Through The Fire (Quitting Opioids)
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