Furry Family, Health & ME/CFS, This Crazy Life

15 Years: Time, Memory, Remembering, Forgetting, and Stupidity

It's funny, what I forget, even now, after so long being sick. Sometimes, in my mind, I am still strong & healthy, as if time simply stopped passing when I became ill. Sometimes, it really feels that way, as if time did stop, and there is only The Before Times and a giant blur that… Continue reading 15 Years: Time, Memory, Remembering, Forgetting, and Stupidity

Health & ME/CFS, This Crazy Life

I Will NOT Go Quietly Into The Dark

In my last post, I said I wanted the fire, the passion, back in my life. Over the last few weeks, I've done a lot of deep thinking and reflecting, while struggling every day just to keep my ship from sinking. Well, I've come to some harsh realizations and conclusions, and I'm feeling pretty damn… Continue reading I Will NOT Go Quietly Into The Dark

Health & ME/CFS, This Crazy Life

Walking Through The Fire (Quitting Opioids)

Frank Talk On Pain and Pain Meds: Introduction – Jumping Off Into The Vast Unknown Part 1: Pain, Pain Meds, Opioids, Addiction and Dependance Part 2: Pain Management Myths and Misconceptions Part 3: My Personal Journey Part 4: Stormy Seas and Taking On Water (Quitting Opioids) Part 5: Walking Through The Fire (Quitting Opioids) (you… Continue reading Walking Through The Fire (Quitting Opioids)

Health & ME/CFS, This Crazy Life

Forgotten Dreams & Finding Myself Again

“Art enables us to find ourselves and lose ourselves at the same time.” ― Thomas Merton, "No Man Is an Island" Recently, I've come to realize (again) just how much being chronically ill has stolen from me, and not just in the obvious physical sense. Little bits & pieces of me, of who I am, have… Continue reading Forgotten Dreams & Finding Myself Again

Life on The Mountain, This Crazy Life

Fear, Nature, and Mother Earth

I was afraid. Not the kind of rational, in-my-head, calculating-the-risk, type of afraid. No. In-my-gut afraid. Primally, animal-instinctually, go-inside-and-hide, afraid. Because of a sound coming up the Mountain, one I'd never heard. It wasn't a feeling I'd had in a long time; in fact, I can't remember when. Certainly never here, at my home on… Continue reading Fear, Nature, and Mother Earth

This Crazy Life, Wolfdreams...

Finding The Path Forward

September is here, there's a cool nip in the air at night, a few leaves are starting to change... Summer is coming to an end, and Autumn is beginning. For many of my dearest friends, this brings a deep sigh of relief, and a hope that the worst is over. For almost everyone I know,… Continue reading Finding The Path Forward