So, I saw the orthopedist yesterday. I suppose there was a little good news, along with the bad. The good: there is no sign of bone infection as the cause of the increased pain I'm having. The bad: the knee is continuing it's disintegration from "severe degenerative arthritis" which all goes back to several injuries,… Continue reading Health Update: The Knee From Hades
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Pain, & a Spark of Hope
There comes a point with pain where it cannot be ignored. Where you try desperately to sleep, but you can't lay still because the pain is overwhelming, and you absolutely must move to try to ease it. And a point where, if you do get to sleep, thanks to ambien, you wake over and over… Continue reading Pain, & a Spark of Hope
Sick & Tired
They say you shouldn't blog when you're angry. And I'm angry. Probably mostly from the amount of Ritalin I've taken today, but also a lot of built up anger. Built up over years. I need you people, my family, to understand something. And it seems like, with one exception, you don't. What I need you… Continue reading Sick & Tired
“Now why don’t she write?” – July Events
Bet you're wondering "Now why don't she write?" (obscure reference to Dances with Wolves...) Well, because it's been a really excruciatingly painful, odd, weird, interesting, frightening, and ultimately enlightening, month. I managed not to die of an aneurysm. Not to have a stroke. And not to have a heart attack. I figured out what was… Continue reading “Now why don’t she write?” – July Events
Breakdown
I feel like I'm having a nervous breakdown. I don't know how much of it is from reducing the pain meds, if it influences the brain that way. Or, is it just the tremendous increase in pain? Pain everywhere. Knee pain in both knees. The headaches without end. The complete and total physical exhaustion. Being… Continue reading Breakdown
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