She is so brazen. She looked up at me, startled, but unafraid, when I came out onto our screened in porch yesterday morning. There she was, standing inside our fenced-in dog yard, stems and leaves dangling from her mouth. She looked guilty, like a kid who got caught with their hand in the cookie jar.… Continue reading A Deer Story: Caught In The Act
A Kick In The Face
Warning: there will be foul words in this post. I don't use them often, but this is just the final straw. Venting ahead... As you, my friends, know, this Summer has been hell. Things got even "hotter" yesterday with the delivery of a letter from social security - and it wasn't the kind of letter… Continue reading A Kick In The Face
In Memorium: My Father’s Passing
Today my father, Joseph L. Collins, passed away, but just moments before he did, I had a great and rare blessing, and I would like to share it with you. My father was 84, and had been in the hospital a week, before being moved to rehab. However, he took a sudden turn for the… Continue reading In Memorium: My Father’s Passing
Positive/Magical Thinking, Reality, Acceptance, Goals and Dreams
ME/CFS patients are often under a great deal of pressure to "stay positive" and told to "visualize yourself healthy and strong again, and you will be." This type of "magical thinking" puts an unfair burden on a person who is already suffering terribly. If they do not improve, then they may be blamed by others… Continue reading Positive/Magical Thinking, Reality, Acceptance, Goals and Dreams
Adrenal Dump: From Wolf to Quivering Rabbit
Note: Yesterday I miscalculated when & how much to eat, was caught off-guard by The Hunger, and wound up having two adrenal (adrenaline) dumps. One was while sitting in the car in front of the grocery store. This is the story of what I experienced. I'm sharing this because I know there are many ME/CFS… Continue reading Adrenal Dump: From Wolf to Quivering Rabbit
Lightbulb Moments: Topamax, Meds, Starvation and Adrenal Issues
The past few days have seen two important "lightbulb" moments happen for me, which I'm sharing here because I know many of my fellow patients are facing similar problems and on similar meds... The ER Visit The Wasn't: Late yesterday afternoon, I started feeling decidely "off," even for me. I was brewing a hormonal migraine,… Continue reading Lightbulb Moments: Topamax, Meds, Starvation and Adrenal Issues
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