There comes a point with pain where it cannot be ignored. Where you try desperately to sleep, but you can't lay still because the pain is overwhelming, and you absolutely must move to try to ease it. And a point where, if you do get to sleep, thanks to ambien, you wake over and over… Continue reading Pain, & a Spark of Hope
Home, Sweet, Reality Check
I'm home! Seems like its been forever! Slept 12 hours in my own bed with the dog, Kasha, pressed up hard against me. The cat, Dusty, behind my knees. But home is also a reality check. It's been a disaster area for years, either too tired to do anything about it or too tired to… Continue reading Home, Sweet, Reality Check
Sick & Tired
They say you shouldn't blog when you're angry. And I'm angry. Probably mostly from the amount of Ritalin I've taken today, but also a lot of built up anger. Built up over years. I need you people, my family, to understand something. And it seems like, with one exception, you don't. What I need you… Continue reading Sick & Tired
RANT: Completely, Totally, UNACCEPTABLE!
(Note: this post is about my discontinuation of methadone, which I was put on for relief of chronic pain. For more info, you can read this blog post.) RANT WARNING: This stupid, goddamned methadone withdrawal thing is completely, totally, UNACCEPTABLE!!! My body is fighting tooth and nail for this last little bit - it's ridiculous!… Continue reading RANT: Completely, Totally, UNACCEPTABLE!
Doctors Who Want Power Over
So I saw my neurologist yesterday. It was interesting. I've never liked her. I like her even less now. I was scheduled to just get an Occipital Nerve Block (ONB), which is injections into the back of the head and side of the neck with a local anesthetic and a type of cortisone called betamethasone.… Continue reading Doctors Who Want Power Over
I am NOT me!
I am so not me. This thing that I've become, that my body has become, this is NOT me! And I've just discovered I'm really angry about that! Have to give it to the Methadone - yeah, it was great at blocking the pain. Methadone is used in chronic pain patients because it does not… Continue reading I am NOT me!
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