There is clearly a disconnection deep in my brain between what my brain thinks I ought to be able to do, and what I can really do without dire consequences. You would think that by this point in life, after how many years of illness? 12 officially, I guess, that I would have it clearly… Continue reading The Disconnection
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Little White Lies
Everyone tells them - the "little white lies." Right? Maybe. Little white lies have been on my mind today. They aren't the same for me as they are for you. I have Asperger's, and part of Asperger's is an "inappropriate" attachment to the "truth" and "honesty." And a difficulty detecting - or anticipating - deceit… Continue reading Little White Lies
Counting the Blessings of 2010
This Christmas Eve, I'm counting my blessings - these are the gifts I've received this year: My mother became very ill, but is thankfully recovered from her two hospitalizations and surgery, and is getting her heart issues sorted out. I'd be lost without her, so I'm so glad she's still around! And, in the process… Continue reading Counting the Blessings of 2010
Pain, & a Spark of Hope
There comes a point with pain where it cannot be ignored. Where you try desperately to sleep, but you can't lay still because the pain is overwhelming, and you absolutely must move to try to ease it. And a point where, if you do get to sleep, thanks to ambien, you wake over and over… Continue reading Pain, & a Spark of Hope
Sick & Tired
They say you shouldn't blog when you're angry. And I'm angry. Probably mostly from the amount of Ritalin I've taken today, but also a lot of built up anger. Built up over years. I need you people, my family, to understand something. And it seems like, with one exception, you don't. What I need you… Continue reading Sick & Tired
I am NOT me!
I am so not me. This thing that I've become, that my body has become, this is NOT me! And I've just discovered I'm really angry about that! Have to give it to the Methadone - yeah, it was great at blocking the pain. Methadone is used in chronic pain patients because it does not… Continue reading I am NOT me!
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