There is a part of my life that only one person sees and understands: Rhiannon. I call it "The Aftermath." Today we ran errands. We left at 3:30 & were home by 7. Three and a half hours, made possible by ritalin (a stimulant to give me a false sense of being functional) and my… Continue reading The Aftermath
Tag: chronic pain
The Disconnection
There is clearly a disconnection deep in my brain between what my brain thinks I ought to be able to do, and what I can really do without dire consequences. You would think that by this point in life, after how many years of illness? 12 officially, I guess, that I would have it clearly… Continue reading The Disconnection
Health Update: The Knee From Hades
So, I saw the orthopedist yesterday. I suppose there was a little good news, along with the bad. The good: there is no sign of bone infection as the cause of the increased pain I'm having. The bad: the knee is continuing it's disintegration from "severe degenerative arthritis" which all goes back to several injuries,… Continue reading Health Update: The Knee From Hades
Pain, & a Spark of Hope
There comes a point with pain where it cannot be ignored. Where you try desperately to sleep, but you can't lay still because the pain is overwhelming, and you absolutely must move to try to ease it. And a point where, if you do get to sleep, thanks to ambien, you wake over and over… Continue reading Pain, & a Spark of Hope
Sick & Tired
They say you shouldn't blog when you're angry. And I'm angry. Probably mostly from the amount of Ritalin I've taken today, but also a lot of built up anger. Built up over years. I need you people, my family, to understand something. And it seems like, with one exception, you don't. What I need you… Continue reading Sick & Tired
RANT: Completely, Totally, UNACCEPTABLE!
(Note: this post is about my discontinuation of methadone, which I was put on for relief of chronic pain. For more info, you can read this blog post.) RANT WARNING: This stupid, goddamned methadone withdrawal thing is completely, totally, UNACCEPTABLE!!! My body is fighting tooth and nail for this last little bit - it's ridiculous!… Continue reading RANT: Completely, Totally, UNACCEPTABLE!
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