Like most females in America, I became aware of the intense pressure to stay thin when I hit puberty. I wanted to be lithe & graceful & tall like the dancers involved in Drama with me were. Instead, my breasts grew large, and I stayed short, at 5' 5". Still, I wanted to be rail… Continue reading Dismayed
Category: This Crazy Life
Just for Tonight, And Maybe Tomorrow
Note: This is not the post I've been meaning to finish, the deep & touching one. That will come when it will... "Brown hair zig-zag around her face and a look of half-surprise Like a fox caught in the headlights, there was animal in her eyes..." "Oh she was a rare thing, fine as a… Continue reading Just for Tonight, And Maybe Tomorrow
Acceptance: Clarity Comes In Darkness
Clarity, that feeling of peace inside, of comprehension, of acceptance of what is and what will be, often comes in our darkest hour, or in darkness itself. It hides from the light of day, and waits for the dark of night, before revealing itself to us. We grasp it gently, lest it be lost, and… Continue reading Acceptance: Clarity Comes In Darkness
Always Counting Spoons
Yesterday, a dear friend shared something with me that touched me so deeply that, for a time, I was wordless, unable to express the complex emotions roiling around inside. For the rest of this post to make sense, I need you to read it, too. Really. It's long, and about lupus, but you can insert… Continue reading Always Counting Spoons
Finally, A Place To Call Home
Sometimes, the truth hurts. But better the truth, and understanding, than living in confusion & conflict, imposing your values on someone else. For those that this hurts, I'm truly sorry. You'll just have to believe me that it was as hard for me to write, as it will be for you to read. I've spent… Continue reading Finally, A Place To Call Home
Wolfdreams: He Is, And He Isn’t
There is a lovely little book called "A Little Dog Like You," by Rosemary Sutcliff, that sits always on a shelf above my bed. As one customer-reviewer writes: If you've ever loved a dog, this book is for you. This slim volume is written and illustrated so that even a very young child could appreciate… Continue reading Wolfdreams: He Is, And He Isn’t
Wolfdreams.... 