Asperger's, This Crazy Life

Feral Eyes and Stillness

Here's a secret, from me to you.Sometimes,Something happens.A conflict.An argument.A situation.And it's just too much. There is a snap,Like a rubber band that's beenStretched far, far,Then suddenly released. Everything goes quiet in my mind.Silence fills me,And a preturnatural stillness.I feel feral,Like a wild animal,Brought into the houseFor the very first time.I look around meA stranger… Continue reading Feral Eyes and Stillness

Asperger's, This Crazy Life

Finally Finding Family

I was told a pretty story, growing up. It went like this... I was given up for adoption at birth. My birth mother was 19, and already had a 3 year old boy. She was a navy brat, living with her parents. Her mother, my birth grandmother, was sick with vaguely described "women's issues." She… Continue reading Finally Finding Family

Asperger's, Life on The Mountain, This Crazy Life

Finally, A Place To Call Home

Sometimes, the truth hurts. But better the truth, and understanding, than living in confusion & conflict, imposing your values on someone else. For those that this hurts, I'm truly sorry. You'll just have to believe me that it was as hard for me to write, as it will be for you to read. I've spent… Continue reading Finally, A Place To Call Home

Asperger's, Wolfdreams...

Wolfdreams: Message In A Bottle

Note: This post is about my spiritual path, part of the Wolfdreams category of my blog. It will likely not make much sense to many people. But it makes sense to me. The message was short and cryptic: "Follow the Patterns to the Stillness within." I had been resting, which became meditating, which became journeying.… Continue reading Wolfdreams: Message In A Bottle

Asperger's, This Crazy Life, Wolfdreams...

That Primal Urge, Neanderthals, & Spirits

(No, not THAT primal urge, another one!) I remember very little of my life. It's not like other people do. I remember little bits & pieces from here & there. Frozen vignettes. Still-lifes. Partly, I'm sure that's from the Lyme, etc. But not entirely. One thing I do remember clearly: as a child, standing in… Continue reading That Primal Urge, Neanderthals, & Spirits

Asperger's, Venting!

Little White Lies

Everyone tells them - the "little white lies." Right? Maybe. Little white lies have been on my mind today. They aren't the same for me as they are for you. I have Asperger's, and part of Asperger's is an "inappropriate" attachment to the "truth" and "honesty." And a difficulty detecting - or anticipating - deceit… Continue reading Little White Lies